Ramble On

The last of the mania has subsided but this time with no complications. Do I feel a little depressed? Maybe a little, coming down off those days of high energy going back to the norm of kicking around does have it’s downfalls for a day or two, like my mind just came off of a week long party and still wanting to get the party started again.

If only my life could stay on that plain without any side effects, what a life that would be, but that’s not the reality of it.

I find it harder to write now, the passion is still there but not at the speed it was, the words do not flash across my mind and no rambling on rough notes needed for this post. Read More The last of the manic mania

Manic for Music

Wow, what a high I was on for 5 days, a natural euphoric high as my hypomania began into full-blown mania, from recognizing this change I have been able to bring myself down a notch, that and Ron insisting I don’t let myself get any higher. The dreaded crash of it, starting with irritable moods then anger then crashing into depression, but it’s hard to force myself to part with the feelings associated that makes me feel alive, feeling and greater sensation of the pleasures surrounding me, taking the bull by the horns.

I knew I was on my way up with the normal indications, and those days felt good, yesterday turned full-blown. The trigger, could it have been from staying up the previous night not wanting myself to sleep, to enjoy the peace surrounding me and to stay awake to experience the sunrise over the lake on this particularly beautiful day, or was it just the natural process that exceeds hypo mania. Read Full Post Bipolar Mania with music thrown in the mix